day 9 - the future.

(full list) - 09 - how you hope your future will be.

how silly is this question? i want my future to be filled with uncertainty and heartache. i want to be unsuccessful and struggling to make ends meet. i want to lose all my friends, and have no goals. i want to throw it all away.

no one says that. because no one wants those things. everyone wants things like: to love and be loved, and to find true happiness. other than that, i don’t know what i want (or hope) for my future. ten years ago i woulda said i wanted a loving husband, a house full of kids living on a mountain over-looking a beach with a wrap-around porch. but, you grow-up, you begin to realize what it takes to achieve those things, and also – that life rarely works out the way you planned, let alone the way you had hoped. you learn to roll with the punches and take each day as they come.

so what i truly want for my future… is the ability to adapt to situations, to be able to know when to take things seriously – and when to just have fun… with no regrets in between. i want to find happiness in everything that comes my way, to learn how to see the good in people and to be less selfish. the thing i want most for my future, is to be a better person tomorrow – than i am today. that’s what i hope for.