i've spent a great deal of time trying to figure out at what point exactly i stopped loving you and it turned out that i was never really in love with the actual you to begin with. i was in love with the person i thought you could be. the idea that i could change you - so to speak. but not in the sense that i could transform you by having you follow a set of rules or guidelines, more so that i'd be enough for you to change on your own. because at one point, you were the one i wanted to be with. but everything is different now.
i know now that there is someone out there who would hold my hand while walking down the street without shame. someone who'd let me pick a show to watch once in a while - even if it's grey's anatomy or friends. a guy who wouldn't deny me as his girl to his friends and family. someone who doesn't mind that once in a while i cry for no good reason or won't tell me that quitting smoking is easy. a man who'd throw any "fear of commitment" out the window because the idea of being without me simply isn't worth such a senseless fear. someone who'd love me in all of my imperfect glory and allow me to love him just the same...
and i can't wait to meet him. :)
"something inside me is breaking
something inside me says there's
somewhere better than this...
something inside me says there's
somewhere better than this...
sunset sailing on april skies
bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
i can't say what i might believe
but if God made you, He's in love with me."
bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
i can't say what i might believe
but if God made you, He's in love with me."
-- fiveforfighting.
That guy seems like an asshole. Maybe there is hope for him yet.
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