dating kinds vs. relationship kinds.

there are two kinds of people. those who can date and those who can't. for a while a part of me really did believe that i fell into the category of those who could... but upon closer inspection, what i really always end up wanting - is for relationships to go somewhere. or at the very least have the potential of going somewhere.

people automatically assume the latter group are the ones who undoubtedly are constantly looking for THE ONE and are always craving marriage, but that's not true. i'd be lying if i said i never want/ed to get married - but i'd also be lying if i said i want/ed to get married right here, right now.

that's just being silly.

i was watching two weeks notice the other night (twice)... and one of my favorite scenes is when they're sitting at dinner and as they're talking about work... you notice him forking (quit laughing) his ice into her glass... then she starts taking shreds of whatever that was off the top of his salad and transferring them to her own plate... then he reaches over to grab her beets... because she hates beets.

that's what i ultimately always end up missing... and wanting. the person who knows the big AND little things about me... someone who i can, without asking, depend on. but the more i think about it - the more i realize that i do kinda sorta have that kind of someone. i remember a few weeks back, we had decided to spend the evening playing mario baseball so while i was waiting for you outside, you came out with a coke (your preference) and a sprite (mine). i've also noticed that when at the ballpark or restaurant when i say all i want is a pop... you come back with a sprite (seirra mist, 7up, whatever). because you just know. i know it's such a small detail... and i know it seems so insignificant... but it's still those inane moments that for some reason, embed themselves in my brain.

bleh, stupid brain.

i guess whether you get it from a boyfriend or a bestfriend... it doesn't really matter. or it shouldn't anyway. some people spend their entire lifetime trying to find someone who knows them on a level above everyone else... and vice versa. if it's there, why is it so necessary to feel as though you must determine the relationship?